So when I think of encouragement, it is sad that the first thing I think of is that guy on Couples' Retreat that hits peoples butts and says, "encouragement!" That is awful, but at least I am honest. However, encouragement has been an issue for me here lately. (*warning: this blog will be random, I have so much I want to discuss. If you get bored easily, you might need to read someone else's blog.)
So, I am a junior at Ole Miss this semester. I miss ICC.. I miss the welcome-y feeling.. the home-y feeling. When I got here, I was excited.. I was ready for something bigger and everything. However, those feelings tucked and hid pretty quickly. I began feeling more like a nobody in a sea of people who thought they were somebody. (Now, please don't think I am going for a pity party here or something; I promise the story takes a positive turn.)
As a transfer student, fellow classmates here have no idea what classes I have taken.. what things I have learned and haven't.. What routes I took in learning.. the techniques I learned.. the experiences I've had-- nothing. However, little do most of them know, my classes at ICC were equivalent to the classes here. I got a fabulous education, and I will end up getting the same piece of paper as they will.
So anyway, I walked into classes where I felt like people thought that I didn't know what I was doing.. Funny thing is, I do. I know what I am doing, I know what I want to do, and I know what I've done. Whew that feels good to get that out. God keeps me strong, and He holds me up. He also gave me a husband that encourages me to keep going when I feel like crap. So trust me, people, I got this. I will continue to try my hardest to be in God's will, following his directions and clinging to his guidance. Which means, I will strive all I can to excel. I am not dumb, but I may seem dumb when I ask question after question. But I am getting there.
A ray of sunshine: I am making friends, gradually.. It is nice. You know, friends make everything easier.
So, I know that blog was random, scattered, and probably not very organized or logical, but I feel so much better. Sorry if I wasted any of your time.. hahaha much love, Lynds :)
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ReplyDeleteYou're gonna get used to Ole Miss! These people can be the sweetest ones you've ever met. I felt out of place at first, but I love it here. You're lucky enough to have a husband to support you and the Writing Center family to back you up. *sings* (nowhere near as beautifully as I'm sure you can, since you are a music major and all) "No matter what may be the test, God will take care of you."
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