Heartache.

So, tonight my family and I watched "Flame On," the video about the life and death of Cooper Jasper, JJ and Melanie Jasper's son. Watching this video, my heart ached. I can not imagine losing a child of my own. Ever... I can not imagine their heartache, even with as much time that has passed.

So tonight, I think I am going to blog about heartache.

and No, not the boy/girl, "nya nya," "He loves me, he loves me not," heartache.
The real stuff.

Presently, my heart aches for Japan.
Could you imagine.. I stopped to think about it.. I can't imagine finding one dead body. I don't like to find dead animals.. could you imagine finding thousands? I can't imagine knowing that I am about to die. And so is everyone else around me.. and there is NOTHING we can do about it.. Knowing that devastation is coming.. is already there. I can't understand how they're feeling.. there is no way. I have never ever faced anything to that caliber. My heart aches for the families.. and children.. but mostly for the unsaved. Oh gosh, does it ache for them..

My heart aches for the all the people around the world that are/were USED for sex trafficking.
I don't mean to go too deep.. but the precious gift that God gives to man and woman to be opened after marriage.. It is taken and used and abused for money and greed and wealth.. Something so beautiful for something that can destroy lives. Greed is the root of evil. I can't imagine how those young women, children, even young men, could feel after being used and used.. My heart aches for them.

My heart aches for orphaned children..
Not only from overseas, but also the ones right here around us.. as a young child, there is one person, at least, that you cling to.. The child puts all their trust in.. Some of these children grow up without knowing that one person loves them. Oh that makes my heart ache. God loves them! He loves them so much, and they are not orphaned! There are no orphans of God! How I wish I could tell every one of them that..

My heart aches the women who have had abortions, and the person that would have become of that beautiful gift of God..
I do not agree with abortion. Whatsoever, in any condition.. But I do NOT hate or dislike the ladies who have had abortions.. It hurts to see the people who support it, because they are alive; they weren't aborted. But for the women who have had abortions.. there is and always will be, whether they feel it or not, a void in their life. God created that child for a purpose. My heart aches knowing that there are so so so many people, children, adults, who were not given the chance to live.. They were not able to grow up like me, blessed with a beautiful family and an education, and wonderful friends.. They were denied their life.. My heart aches for what could have been.

But, when I think about how amazing, AMAZING, my God is, My heart rejoices.

He can turn all these situations around. He has that power! He does. He is amazing.

Have a great weekend.

Long time, no see.

Whew, it has been a while since I have blogged! I have missed it.. Last week I didn't hardly have much time! Maybe I can do a quick recap..

Studied.. took tests.. had class... slept.. worked.. Saw friends, family, Charles.. eh. So I wasn't THAT busy.

But now, I am enjoying my spring break. And I am very happy about it. My Charles told me I should blog.. isn't he sweet. :) He just knows me.

So let me tell you a little bit about him :)

Charles Doyle Huckaby, 20.
Graduate of Houston High School, Soon to be Graduate of Mississippi State University, and about to be a student in the University of Mississippi Law School. (We're really excited about this.)

He is wayyyyy cute. Totally the cutest guy I have everrr seen. :) hehe (<-- My schooldays crush giggle)

Anyways.. He is getting to marry the cooooooolest girl EVER in about 2 months.. Yeah, I am excited for him.. he deserves somebody superrrr cool. :) hahahahaha

He knows the tricks to calming me down, he knows each of my laughs, he can tell me what I am thinking by my facial expression (which says a lot because I have MANY expressions), he makes me feel like a princess.

He is by far the greatest guy I have ever met.. I know God made him especially for me. Thank you God! :) :) I needed him!

This weekend we are taking our engagement pictures.. or actually, my fabulous beautiful amazzzzingly talented friend, Megan Lee Price is taking them. :) We are taking them all in Starkvegas, so if you see three crazy folks running around town, just excuse us. Or stop and say hello.
(andddd if you have any ideas/past experiences/anything to share about engagement picture shoots, leave a comment, pleaseeee, email me at lpstafford01@my.iccms.edu)

So. Excited. About. That.

Hope you folks have a fantastic spring break. Love you guys. <3

Dog Days.

So, I have no idea what this "Dog Days Are Over" song means, but I really like it. It makes me want summer. I really can't understand much that the girl says.. but you know, it's catchy.

And good grief, if ICC has one more dogwood tree, I am going to poison them like Auburn's trees. No, just kidding, I'm really not.. but man oh man, do they stink, or what?? Whew.. they smell like dog.

This blog is just for rambling purposes. I said that I was going to devote my next blog to my sweet Charles, but with my nonchalant mood that I am rocking right now, I don't think that I would do him much justice.. because he is pretty amazing, and I am feeling kinda blah.

Every time I think about the weekend, I think about the one thing that is keeping me from it.. the one negative thing, anyway. Astronomy tomorrow night.. I have never disliked a class so much! I mean, stars are BEAUTIFUL, don't get me wrong, but I get so sick of the "physics" element that Mr. Swanson brings to class. Hello? Aren't we just supposed to look at stars? I am not Einstein!

I love Pandora. If you are not a Pandora-n, you need to do it. It is free, and it is the best internet radio EVER. As a matter of fact I am listening to it now.. Makes me happy. Especially when I have to sit in the library to tutor the nonexistent writers who never come in here for 3 hours. Boredom, yes.

Anyway, I am so sorry that I let you down on the coolness of this blog.. It was pretty lame. But, it relieved some of my stress!

I love you guys. Have a fabulous night.